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100 days.
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Assalamualaikum.
Mak balik dari Makkah; beli jubah.
Maka,
malam ni kita buat gaya muslimah sikit.
Nampak macam bersahaja, tapi pleaseee, OK
I think I spent like 20 minutes just to wear the tudung.
Tolong lah cakap I pulled off the Jubah-Look tonight.
*terima kasih*
Ish ish.
Cuba tunjuk gambar camni dekat "bakal" Mak Mertua..
Ini gambar, orang KL cakap "Pandai Main"
atau
orang Cina cakap "Pandai Cari Makan"
Betul ke tak?
Seriously, sendiri tengok gambar ni pun macam terharu.
Nampak gaya Ibu Mithali habis.
Aliff, bila Aliff besar nanti, tolong kahwin dengan perempuan seperti di bawah ini.
Sopan sangat.
Amboi.
Ini pepatah Melayu cakap "Angkat Bakul Sendiri"
Dzue cakap, "Pakai jubah pasal hati, bukan pasal gaya"
- Mood:
loved
Memang leka.
Kita go thru one day at a time,
sungguh BUSY, sungguh....
Makin hari makin sibok.
Makin hari makin jauh.
and kita jadi leka.
Leka dengan kehidupan.
Leka dengan duniawi.
Lupa tanggungjawab sebenar.
Kadang-kadang kita leka sangat,
tapi Allah tetap sayang kita, kasi kita kesedaran.
Ya Allah, terima kasih malam nie.
Terkenang dekat Arwah Sara,
I miss you so much.
Terkenang masa hari raya main mercun sama-sama.
Beli baju tidur design sama.
Kita suka main masak masak, kan?
Pergi cuti sana sini.
Beli barang semua sama aja.
Growing up,
I didn't take the chance to really spend that much time with you.
And now that you're gone,
Memang susah, susah sangat nak terima.
Ya Allah..
Ampunlah.
Malam ni saya menangis lagi teringat Sara.
Dia baik, dia kecil lagi.
Tak, jangan salah faham, saya tak pertikaikan pemergian dia,
Saya redha.
Saya terima.
Tapi,
Malam ni, saya terkenang & air mata terus berlinang.
Ada orang cakap, "Jangan nangis, itu takdir."
Ada orang cakap, "Not all are beautiful as it might seem."
Yer, saya tahu semua tu.
Saya terima takdir, saya memang terima.
Tapi,
Air mata tetap nak jatuh.
Saya rindu.
Maafkanlah.
If I knew Italy was our last trip together,
I would have spend all the time I had with you.
I'm sorry I never took the time.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.
Sara, forgive me for crying tonight.
I miss you.
Insya Allah kita bertemu lagi.
- Mood:
nostalgic
Look at that silly grin on my face.
Oooohh silly, silly, me.
Nooo...
Ooohhh, silly, silly you.
It's all your fault, now :)
XOXO
- Mood:
horny
Pernah baca buku "The Secret"?
If you have, then you'll be familiar with "Law of Attraction"
Yer, saya memang tak baca pun buku tu,
tapi haritu pergi seminar; diorang tunjuk DVD The Secret 1 jam (based on the book),
so tak payah baca buku, tengok jer DVD tu.
(btw:- Haritu pergi Penang kan, pastu ada kedai dvd tepi jalan tepi hotel jual DVD The Secret tu RM4 jer,
tapi tak beli la pasal dah tengok kan masa dkt seminar tu)
Anyway, back to the Law of Attraction.
I somewhat agree with this Law.
If you think positive things, positive outcome will follow.
Vice versa.
(Read the book, or watch the DVD lah, I'm lazy to explain what the law is all about.. :)
Well, it's all in the mind really.
Saya percaya, kebanyakan benda berlaku bukanlah sekadar nasib.
Yes, some people might be lucky than others,
but semua tu kita boleh control, Insya Allah.
Berusahalah.
You gotta work HARD for it.
You gotta WANT it.
Law of Attraction simply means,
if you think you can make it,
Your mind will be up for it
And unconciously you will work hard to be able to make it
and thus,
you have it.
(Faham ke tak ni? Ha.. kalau tak faham, pergi Penang, cari kedai DVD pastu tengok lah the Secret)
Anyway, before I go any further,
why I am thinking about Law of Attraction today, is coz I was bored, at home.
I get bored easily and I think it's starting to annoy people.
(I beg to differ, I think I annoyed few people already:)
And when saya bosan, saya jadi boring
lepas tu mulalah mengeluh
pastu suasana kat rumah mulalah jadi lah suram
You attract negative energy and flow back to the world the negativity.
And YES, I get bored easily,
tapi harini saya KATAKAN TIDAK!!
and especially TODAY, I will not attract the NEGATIVE vibes!
& that was when I saw Bob & his XLR.
So heyyy.. I thought, jom lah jadi tak BOSAN
Kita buat-buat macam happening
Photoshoot!!
*laughs*
Dalam gambar kita berlakon-lakon macam tengah photoshoot apa apa lah,
lepas tu duk gelak gelak sambil ambil gambar,
gelak gelak berlakon je ye,
tapi dalam berlakon-lakon tu tiba tiba jadi happy jugak
lepas tu suasana dekat rumah terus jadi best.
#1 Attempt:- Trying to look nocholant here. Like, "eh, tak sedar pun ada camera?"
Nampak real kan?
#3 Attempt:- "Senyum budget cute",
pura-pura senyum macam ada jejaka hensem macam McDreamy kat depan
dalam gambar ni rambut nampak cam terurus kan?
jangan percaya atau terpedaya
camera trick semata-mata
#4 Attempt:- buat muka "How you doing"
Yer, memang fake.
I actually took hundreds of photos, but if I upload all of them,
I think you might wanna puke or laugh your eyes out,
because some of them were really, really, er, UGLY.
Okay, terima kasih :D
Thank you, my beloved photographer.
Nah ambik bunga curi dari pasu Mama
- Mood:
amused
You know when you were just a small kid,
There's this one annoying toy that bugs your sleep.
Yes, I still remember you,
Dear Chucky.
I hated you when I was small.
I still hate you now.
You are just way too creepy.
Twisted.
And, sick.
You have that evil grin,
And those eyes, they really creep the hell out of me.
Why did I have to watch that movie of yours, I never know.
And why did I have to watch the sequence after that, I don't know as well.
But I do know, I had trouble sleeping for many, many years.
I hate you.
You are just way too twisted.
Eventho it wasn't the real Chucky doll, only some cut up poster of you.
I think I deserved some credit for that.
Because, you really, really, traumatized me when I was growing up.
So Dear Chucky,
Please, go away.
Don't scare little kids and me.
Don't kill people.
And to the manufacturers,
Please, stop making CHUCKY DOLLS!!!
I still hate Chucky.
- Mood:
scared
Today, we headed South LA.
Yes... SIX FLAGS MAGIC MOUNTAIN!
This is a rollercoaster haven.
If you love thrills, please....... come over....
Let me show you some of the crazy, crazy rides!
X2 is def THE CRAZIEST, WICKEST, RIDE EVER!!!
My God, when I was riding it, even with my eyes closed, I can still feel the terror.
I couldnt even feel my legs.
Lucky I didn't pee in my pants.
Hahahaha.
It was crazy, man!!!!!!!
It's a feeling I can never describe!
I fell down when I got off the ride!!!!
Anyway, side line,
As we waited for our turn for the rides,
WE READ!
Read while waiting, Okay?
Bring a book along, everywhere, anywhere :)
Oh well, either that,
or you can always grab a cup of coffee when you're waiting :D
- Mood: enthralled
I woke up quite early today, despite what happened last night. He..he he.
Anyway, it was sunny so we decided to go to the beach. 
I've always been The OC fan. I think it's one of the coolest TV Shows, ever.
I especially dig Marissa Cooper's style.
And I totally disagree when The OC axed her from the show.
She is The OC!
Anyway, the reason I am talking about The OC is that, because the beach that I went to was The OC Beach. Yes, the exact beach where they used to have their late night parties, where Seth, Summer, Ryan & Marissa dated, where Marissa overdosed herself, and, everything else.
I started the day by getting Azri to pose me a shot.
Say Hello to California! 
To be honest, there was nothing spectacular about the beach.
Aside from the fact that it was featured in the OC, it was somewhat, ordinary.
However, I still can't deny that all beaches are in fact, a lovely place to be.
It somehow makes me feel all giddy and happy.
I like to mess around with Azri & Azam :D
So yeah, it was windy & sunny. I wished it stayed that way every day!
Not chilly, and dry, and rainy.. Gosh!
The weather was amazing that day, and how I wish you were there too :)
- Mood: cheerful
I was out with family & of course, Baby A.
His Papa-The-Man got him the cutest Black Leather Jacket that kinda matches mine, and I thought he looked awfully cute wearing those.
Awwwwhhh..
*hugs*
Today we went to meet Santa.
It'd prolly be a good business if we setup a company to actually screen/filter all these Santa mascots so that they ACTUALLY look like Santa.
Anyway, it was a longgg walk to meet Santa.
Our matching jacket.
*grins*
Well, Baby A didn't wanna go near the Santa, he is quite a penakut, I tell you :D
Meeting Santa, I can't help to wonder who is the person underneath the beard,
as it is, Christmas Day, and most Americans are at home celebrating.
Santa would prolly be some foreign Bangladeshi worker, you'd never know..
Sneak peak of Grinch's place..
Well, so Baby A wasn't that excited to meet Santa.
Maybe not his style, you know..?
He's more towards, mmm, Ben 10, or Power Rangers.
Little monster.
- Mood: excited
Tomorrow EVERYTHING wud be closed and today it'd be dark by 4.
So I thought, why not we do some last minute shopping,
get ourselves caught up with and like everyone else
Trying to purchase the last piece of smoked salmon...
Theeee....
Yeah, where else do we go, if not,
the Hollywood Boulevard itself?
Lucky it's just few mins from home, and I got parking right smack in front of Hooters itself.
And lucky me, again, it's a 2USD for Four hour parking, instead of the sad sad 15 mins parking spot only that's oh-so-annoying-but-is-everywhere in Holly.
Say "Hellooo Hollywood" 
He is definately my favorite star engraved on Hollywood Boulevard.
Who would have ever thought, to build a house, filled with pretty hot girls,
and all you do is flaunt yourself, party and party, until you get freaking old,
and make a fortune while doing it?
Kudos!
Hey! Even the Elmo did his last minute shopping.
Like, really, he was out there, walking with me, and I was like
"So what's the plan?"
And he said, "Oh yah, Hot Choco and some groceries, you kno, Xmas style"
Then later that day I saw him again, this time holding and kissing small kids while their moms and pops took their pictures, and him, Elmo getting some money in return for the photoshoot...
He came to me and said, "Whadya kno.. my grocery money.."
Haaa... So next time I come here, I prolly dress as Hello Kitty or something....
Later that day, it rained.
I really didn't want to waste 10 dollars to buy some umbrella that I'd just disregard once I get back home, so I made Baby A, his very own protection kit.
Made out of rubbish plastic.
Hahahaha.
You see, it's VERY practical, as even Baby A's ears are covered.
And he is protected from the rain!
Hurray!
I guess it's time for us to go back home...
As you can see.. he is crying ....
Aww.. Look at that cute face :)
- Mood: energetic
The Playboy mansion was looking for a new Playmate to become November covergirl.
It's interesting to see on the NUMBER of girls that went for the casting, and gosh,
I tell you, some of them,
I was like "are you out of your mind? Playmate? Like, really?"
I mean, some of them were old enough to actually become a Grandma,
and some actually looked like a cow, not that I'm judging, but really?
I guess it actually took quite a courage to be featured in TV, wearing nothing,
with that sort of presentation.
Anyway, it was something like, erm, American Idol,
like when that I forgot his name, that chinese guy, who sang Ricky Martin song?
Yeah.
That guy.
Those girls, were out there, confidently saying
" I AM THE NEXT PLAYMATE."
Oh well.
The famous 3 Bunnies of Hugh Hefner went to Hooters in that episode.
Holly, Hugh Hefner's favorite out of the 3 BUNNIES, ordered "Fried Pickles".
I was watching this, and weird enough,
I was more fascinated to the Fried Pickles, rather than those playmates.
Suddenly I just felt that I really HAVE to TRY that Fried Pickles.
So yeah, I went to Hooters.
Yes, this is the closest you can get to a Playmate when you're out with me. I shall not be involved!
Azri with Samanta, one of the Hooter girls. I loike ;)
Well, I ordered the Fried Pickled.
Not surprised, it looked way delicious when Holly was eating it.
Truth is, it was NOT that yummy, afterall.
I also tried the burger & the salad.
It was typical.
I guess the highlight was only the girls.
I don't know why I always fall for these media tricks.
- Mood: cheerful
It was a really, really, lazy day.
I haven't had a decent meal for days.
I don't know why the people here like to eat fast food all the time.
They promote healthy lifestyle, but all that's available here are hamburgers.
Sheesh.
So today, we decided to cook some "decent" meal.
Ahemmmm.....
Still in my pyjamas..
Yes.. I have NOT showered. *grins*
Introducing... the Salmon, before it was put in the oven..
I'm NOT sure if you can actually see it, tho.
It is, somewhere, down there.
Theee... 
Oh ya.. While I was cooking inside the kitchen, this was what the little monster was doing outside.
Taking his OWN photo.
Making funny faces...
When I announced it's MAKAN time.. Look at his expression...
Now time to eat! Mmmmmm!
- Mood: melancholy
I was like, what on earth?
We are at Nevada Desert and, you say it's snowing?
Amazing enough, indeed, it was SNOWING in the DESERT.
How ironic is that?
Playing with the Snow.
No typical Snow man photos, tho.
We were freezing.
And my legs got stucked in the snow
Sheeeesh..
He's about to throw them snow at me!!!
I love the snow.
So putih. :D
- Mood:
cold
I can see Baby A getting really, really excited.
He likes to make faces when he is giddy.
Yeah, me too, I had to do faces with him.
Look! It's Uncle Tom!!!
See, Baby A got alllll excited.
Started to show off his Power Rangers moves!!!!
Making those funny faces again!
I feel like curling him up into a ball and squeeeeeze him!
Soooo cute :D
Baby A is happy & he loves Uncle Tom!
- Mood: happy
We were out for lunch,
and hey,
snow was all over.
Here, you will realize,
that Snow-Blowing exists!
Blowww bloowwww....
Snow makes us go all giddy.
(eventho it's fake. lol)
Don't you think?
This sad sod dropped his RM10 Willy Wonkas candies.
I can't believe he actually picked those up again.
Just because, it was RM10.
Haaaa!
Okay that's all for today.
Time for lunch :D
- Mood:
hungry
Like today, I opted for the dress with the tights instead,
because those jeans are getting pretty, unsightly for, if not me, others to see.
*grins*
But hey, who is complaining, as today I was out for Churros.
You might say, No wonder those jeans are getting smaller each day?
I, somewhat, blame the 30 minutes "Extra Dry" dryers.
It's not Churros fault, as it is,
SO HOT and SWEET and SINFUL
when it's so COLD and DRY out here.
Time to get something to drink. Look at the little monster wearing them sunglasses.
So yeah, Churros was fun.
But if you have them each day,
You'd prolly have to stop blaming the dryer when those clothes start to shrink :D
- Mood:
full
I was out at the Fossil Dig Site today.
I didnt really expect to find anything, but heck,
it is, afterall, THE FOSSIL Dig Site ;)
Anyway, I was minding my own business, thinking about the Java Chips Frapucinno that I was going to have for lunch, when I found the fossil.
Fascinated I was, by the finding, but, this, got me thinking.
You know, you can bury anything you want. You can hide anything. Pretend, or ignore.
But at the end of the day, the truth will STILL be there, eventho just as fossils, and not as clear as it used to be..
But, it will still be there.
The past haunts you.
That instant, I decided, I will NOT let the past haunt me.
"I shall clean my dirty laundry. "
Later that day, I was out with 2 of my very best friends.
All three of us, agreed, it was time - to clean our dirty laundry.
Clean EVERYTHING, every last piece of clothing.
Stop piling the laundry, it's time to send them away.
No looking back to remorse on things that's already tampered with, worn and old.
Worn & Old.
Dirty Laundry.
To start fresh, you have to be fresh.
Clean your dirty laundry.
Then only can you focus on a new day.
- Mood: rejected
Often enough,
what you see isn't always what you get.
Words, are just, words.
It can be empty words,
It can bring meanings.
Regardless,
Words can be interpreted in many ways.
Sometimes, it amazes me how the same words
can bring very, very different understanding to different people.
You can't control perception.
Different background leads to different mindset :)
There's no one right answer for all.
There's no perfect political answers.
"You be the Judge."
- Mood:
annoyed
Whenever I go to weddings,
I often ask "How do you know?"
How do you know if she/he's the one for you?
How do you know you're ready?
What are the symptons?
What qualities should you look for?
When is the right time?
How do you know the feeling's real?
How long will the feeling last?
Will you be happy?
How certain you're not going to make a mistake?
How do you know if she/he's the right one, the right time?
Too many questions, and, too often,
I was offered answers by the bride or the groom.
However, my brain just can't connect the pieces.
I was unable to accept & understand.
People can provide many answers
Authors can write many books
Parents can give you many advices
Friends can share with you many expriences
Truth is,
None of this would make sense to you.
Nobody can actual come up with a manual on knowing when you found the right one, the right time.
Truth is, again,
YOU JUST KNOW.
You just know :)
No manual,
No answers,
No books,
No advices,
No expriences.
You just know.
It's not something you can teach
It's not something you can learn
I realize that now.
You just, know.
"You don't need facts & figures to understand"
- Mood: cheerful
I quote, "DH"
Marriage.
A promise to stay together for better or for worse.
For richer or for poorer.
In sickness and in health.
To honor and to cherish.
Forsaking all others.
Until death do us part.
Yes, the vow is simple.
Finding someone worthy of such a promise is the hard part. 
But if we can, that's when we BEGIN to believe in happily ever after.
- Mood: lonely